Time flies..... It has been more than a month since my mum left me. Sad as I am, I reckoned that it's about time to move on. I thrust myself back into work and tried to return to normalcy. I was raring to go. And true enough, I was able to repress those feelings, or so I thought. As soon as I slowed down, I was suddenly swept by the sense of helplessness. The whole thing just engulfed me with no mercy. I simply "spaced out" Recovery was harder than I expected. I'm still shedding tears. Was I so close to my mum? Then why am I so depressed? Some said that time will numb the pain, but it seems to be getting unbearable for me each passing day.
I keep telling myself there are people younger than me who are in more tragic circumstances and they learnt to pick themselves up. Why can't I? Well I believe I can. But I grief differently too. I will always remember all of her, her kindness, her devotion to us, her selflessness, her cooking! (Yes! I'm really gonna miss her home cooked food....) There is absolutely no doubt she is forever in my heart until the day mine stops.
How I hope that I am like those high achievers, high grades, successful careers, how proud my mum would be of me. Well, I am nothing like that. Or rather far from it! Sometimes I'm really looked down on myself. Would my mum be? Well... I got my answer. Her friends told me at the wake that she was very proud of me, that I have a stable career, a house of my own and given her a cute grandson, what more could she ask for? I was really really happy for her and for myself. Is it possible that I have done something right for once?
As much as I want to see her now, I know it's just not my time yet. I have to shift my focus now to my family and my father. I have to see to it that my son grow up to be a fine young man. I'm going teach him all the things mum taught me. I'll see to it that he will get the best of everything I could afford. I will fight on. I will hang in there for just a little longer.... I will give him all the love I have. Because I know mum is watching....
And when the time finally comes, I will be able to tell her that I have never ever let her down.
"Will you be waiting at the RAINBOW BRIDGE for me when my time is up, MUM?"
I went down to Takashimaya specifically to look at the BAKUC entries at level 2, Toy Department during my lunch time today. The number of entries this year seem to be lesser than. There are some rather neat pieces which I liked. Anyway, I managed to take some photos of the entries before I rushed back to work and here they are.....
Firstly the one and only entry from the Expert Category.
This is one fantastic looking Providence by Leon Ku, previous years BAKAC/BAKUC winner. To be frank I have yet to come across one modeller who is able to present this kit as sinister and overpowering as this. The modifications and colouring is spot on. Definitely the best one I ever seen.
Providence [1/100] [Conversion]
Clever use of stock bases here! Thumbs up!
Hildolfr [EX model][1/144]
The first thing that attracted me to this kit is the camo scheme which is very pleasing to the eye. I don't know why but this kit gives me the "Metal Gear Solid" feeling..... hahaha.
Turn A Gundam [NG][1/100]
Zeta Gundam [HG][1/144]
Neat paint job!
SD Stargazer & Strike Noir
Eye-catching stuff here!
SD Duel & Astray
Anti Smoking entry, cool!
Strike Gundam [PG][1/60]
This entry really overshadows the rest!
GUNDAM MK II [MG][1/100]
Gundam MKII [MG][1/100]
MASTER GUNDAM [MG][1/100]
MUSHA GUNDAM [MG][1/100][Conversion]
Nice details and great scratch-building skills. Love those weapons!
HI-NU GUNDAM [MG][1/100]
Another one with neat paint job and camo scheme.
GM QUEL [HG][1/144]
Nice pose and customization....
GM SNIPER [MG][1/100][Conversion]
HAZEL [HGUC] & FIVER [SCRATCHBUILT][1/144]
Another huge entry!
KERBEROS BUCUE HOUND [1/144]
ASTRAY RED FRAME [NG][1/100]
A refreshing break the gold colour scheme
CROSSBONE X-1 [MG][1/100]
CROSSBONE GUNDAM X-2 [MG][1/100]
I think there are still some kits I never take photos of but I guess this is the bulk of it anyway.... Good luck to all the contestants!